How I Experience Myself

 

I’ve just been informed that I haven’t been living in your type of world…

Facts

Sex: Female

My physical age on planet earth: 36 years

Mental illness diagnosis: Borderline Personality Disorder

Present day number of BPD criteria I meet according to the DSM-V (0-9): most

Previous mental health issue identifications by mental health professionals (in order from most recent to oldest, not taking into account repeated or re-diagnoses of the same mental health issue – the first identification of that particular issue is what’s recorded):

  • Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
  • »»» Mental Breakdown «««
  • Depression
  • Bipolar Unspecified
  • ADD
  • PTSD
  • Post-Partum Anxiety and Depression
  • Anxiety
  • OCD
  • Panic Attacks

Level of functioning as described by mental health professionals: very high functioning

My age living in the “BPD” world: unknown, best guess would be ~ 12 years of age to present day = 24 years

My age living in the “normal” world in some capacity: diagnosis day/day of enlightenment/mind-blown + 4 days = 4 days

My BPD

How I experience “myself” in “the world” in ten words or less;

“I whisper WTF to myself 500 times a day.”

or maybe Monte Python’s words are better?

“… And now for something completely different…”